You’re Never Alone

"Quoted"

Why, as the world spins, do I stand?You are never alone
Still as the leaves, when there is no wind,
Why does it hurt so much?
When everything you believe in, feels right,
Why am I falling?

When everything around me is rising with the sun,
Why look for pain?
When there is none,
Is heaven a place on Earth?
Or does it come from the heart,
Every breath I take, is another fire, burning up inside,
I know that sometimes the truth hurts, but don’t ever let it slide.

Am I the only one, who takes pride in the little things?
The colour of the sky at dawn,
The feeling, knowing you’ve got something to give,
Even though they spit in your fire,
The freedom to run the waves, whenever the time is right,
The joy, of taking pride in who you are,
Even though they try and scar,
The flame of the candle, dancing in the window pane,
You are fulfilled; you have nothing more to gain.
Is there another part of me?
A part I do not know,
Whatever the future holds, I cannot tell yet,
But I can now see the glow,
A shimmer of light,
A glimmer of hope,
In everything I do.

Feel every moment you live,
For you do not know,
When the sun will stop rising,
Become who you were born to be,
For everyone is here for a reason,
Discover the meaning of life,
You will know when you’ve found it,
The warm heart, and sound of tiny toes,
Pitt-pattering on the floor,
The sound of giggling and laughter,
Where there was none before.

Feel love, when you give,
Not only when you get,
I ask for one thing,
Don’t leave this world yet,
You have many more things to discover,
The light is upon you,
And remember…
You’re never alone.

"Quoted"
Read more: http://www.poetryoflife.com/#ixzz19CK9zD68

Crossroads

Sudan stands at a crossroads with the people of the South set to vote in January on whether to become independent. This referendum is part of a 2005 peace deal which brought to an end a devastating 22-year civil war which left two million people dead and the same number homeless. Now, with the South likely to secede, Sudan's borders and history may have to be rewritten.
Sudan, with 44 million people Africa largest nation, is rich in diversity and tradition but it is deeply divided along tribal lines. Sudan is on the verge of splitting in two with a potential for more fragmentation in the months and years ahead - a break up that could quickly deteriorate into another bloody conflict involving nations far beyond its borders.

After gaining independence in 1956, the nation has spent the best part of four decades fighting two civil wars. The most recent resulted in the death of two million people - and officially ended five years ago with the Comprehensive Peace Agreement. With the upcoming referendum on January 9, at least eight million people in the south may vote themselves into becoming citizens of the world's newest nation. But its borders still have to be decided. And there is a possibility negotiations may collapse into a free-for-all where the North and the South battle for the best they can get.

South Sudan has more than 400 different tribes, and it is not religion that defines identity there, tribe does. With hundreds of tribes and hundreds of languages and dialects, the South is host to a very diverse population. It is possible to find a Muslim, a Christian and an Animist in one family. Many of the smaller tribes of Southern Sudan are concerned about being dominated by the bigger tribes, they fear the hegemony of the Dinka tribe since Salva Kiir and most of the Sudan People's Liberation Movement (SPLM) leadership are Dinka.

Anyhow, for you to get a general idea about the referendum process you could check this article http://www.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/D42A6D7A-18EB-4D0C-9E6F-D86E137701E5.htm

Why !

Recently as everyone saw in the news, Omar al-Bashir, has been suspected of siphoning off $9 billion from Sudan’s oil boom and depositing much of it in British banks, according to a leaked US diplomatic cable “WikiLeaks”.
The claims came from Luis Moreno Ocampo, the chief prosecutor with the International Criminal Court who has accused Mr Bashir of genocide and war crimes in Darfur. He suggested that Lloyds Banking Group, which is partly government-owned, was either holding some of the funds or knew its whereabouts.

“Apparently” Lloyds Banking Group has said there is "no evidence" that Sudan's president stole $9 billion from his country and deposited it in London. “I’m not discussing if this is true or not” but I’m just wondering why this leaked story came out in this particular time with the referendum on the line, regardless if it is true or not?

Tears of Sudan

The separation tragedy moments of Sudan is getting closer to, the emotions is torn between steeped in love and unity, and the separation has vanished with the several days to the south in the infallibility of the unit, to replace fully associate with a new name, and a flag to force a new state, have limitations and restrictions limited by the capacity of the old Sudan.

Instead of years we counted, years we thought were long, since the signing of Peace Agreement in Nivasha, between the Sudanese government and the Sudan People's Liberation Movement (SPLM), on the ninth of January 2005, since that day everyone’s sight were on the remaining days till the referendum, the days passed and now we are just wondering how we reached this moment so quickly? And how hope for unity is fading? Why the tears became the language of expression for the case instead of words? What unleashed tears of loneliness and separation to pour down heavily in two different directions?

It has been said that the one who cry are the politicians who are tied to their homeland issues and rights, and the fate of those who work with them in the field of politics and public concern. When you lose one of the goals they sought to achieve them, or calling for it. Sudanese politicians now are crying over here and there: “unity or separation”, and the referendum on the doors. However, no one can tell us about the friends again after a separation.

Dr. John Garng once said: “no one will liberate Sudanese people but themselves”. He also added after the agreement “This peace agreement signals the beginning of one Sudan regardless of race, religion or tribe.” It pretty clear that the leaders of Sudan People's Liberation Movement have changed the vision of the person who led them to this agreement and carried that dream of unity and peace away. Sudanese Government shares this cause of this tragedy because they did not invest in the south in the last five years, since the signing of the Peace Agreement.

The holding of the referendum without resolving the issues tied to it would be a disaster, because it would leave a flammable bomb ready to explode at any moment, between two heavily armed parties, all of this will be added to the tears of many from outside the border, added to the tears inside.

So the question is will the Sudanese people cry with these politicians on the ninth of January 2011!

والله المستعان على كل حال

SELF-RESPECT

We all know what it is to feel respect for other people, but do we know how to respect ourselves? Do we really know what it is to respect our own choices? I hope and pray most of us do.I didn't always respect ME. I had to grow and learn. I had to take a few falls. One day I realized that I'm not nearly as bad as I thought I was! No, I was a good person in spite of myself. I did have redeeming qualities after all.

Sometimes we do things we are not proud of. It can happen in the heat of the argument or in a weak moment of instant pleasure. I strive to do the right thing and when I don't I strive to correct it. It isn't always easy to admit when we are wrong, but in the end it is the right thing to do and can clear our conscience and hearts. We should make up for our mistakes if we ever want to truly respect ourselves. We need to correct our wrongs and put our egos aside. I have learned to do that. I sometimes stumble and I sometimes fall even now, but I recognize my faults, as many as I have. They make me human. Being human is not a bad thing, it just is.

To learn to respect myself I had to go through the usual growing up and making mistakes and falls through my past. It's those mistakes that taught me.Without taking a tumble and bruising our egos from time to time, we can't learn. Learning is a process of trial and error. Good and bad. Success and failure. It's the failures that make us think. It'being pushed off our self made pedestals that make us feel human and fallible. We all need to got through it. There is no short cut.

After a few good falls I learn to adjust my thinking and what a difference it made!! I can see my faults more clearly. I can correct them and make up for them. We can never really respect ourselves unless we can look inward with an honest heart. If you can't see what's inside yourself, how can you see what is inside anyone else? It's a growing and learning process, but one that has a wonderful outcome. Looking inward we can learn to love ourselves and respect ourselves. We can know ourselves.

I have begun my journey and it has taken me to new places and new awareness. I can say now I respect myself. I try to make the right choices, but even if I fail, I know I am doing the best I can. There is nothing wrong with failure, but there is something wrong with not trying. To never try is a failure. You fail yourself. I will not fail myself most of all because how can I be there for anyone else if I cannot be there for myself?

All this has led me back to self respect, which is not conceit. It is a willingness to love yourself, be kind to yourself, and to always try to act with a conscience and regard for yourself and others. If you don't care about others, you really can't care about yourself.

I respect myself now "el7amdolillah". I respect that I try to the best of my abilities.I respect that I correct my wrongs when they are pointed out to me. I respect that I am not perfect and never will be, because no one is perfect but God "w ne3ma bellah". What I respect the most is that I am just a human being and to try to be anything other than that would be a failure. For good or bad, I am flawed and make mistakes like everyone else, but I still love and respect myself in spite of that.

The Golden Days

There is not a day goes by that I don’t think of the golden days. 5 years passed as a one day and without any doubt the people I shared those days with were the best ever.

I definitely would not have come as far as I have without those friends, wonderful people who have changed my life in so many unexpected and delightful ways, I will forever be grateful for them.

Someone might tell me “but when time goes by, and people grow and change, new friends can always be made” but somehow, I just doubt it will ever be the same as it was.

I miss the days, those days where we’ve been able to get through everything (al7amdolillah), when we were standing as one.


Dedicated to the gold friends

And more to come isA :)



“if only Torky’s simulator was a true fact” ;)

Here I Am

I can't believe that I'm doing this .. but yes ! here it is .. My blog "SuDaNi"
anyhow I thought alot before taking this step .. because I thought it might be "lame or not cool" but since I saw many of my friends started to write their thoughts I told myself "I can do that too!"

Here I Am .. doing my master degree in UTP the same place I spent the last five years of my life in .. alot asked me about this decision "Is it worth it? ..
the thing is that even me I wasn't sure if I'm making the right decision but i went for it and I really hope that it was the right one .. It was hard at the beginning especially seeing my old colleges and friends leaving and going back after a 5 golden years we spent together .. hard to accept that I'm entering a new stage of my life .. but alhamdolillah I've managed to go through this hard time ..

I'll try to keep this blog active so stay tuned ;)

Aminooz